last night i sorta lost it. i was webcamming with my friend anna and justin. and at some point i just lost it cause i realized holy crap justin is coming for real. i guess seeing him on webcam really solidified it and i really got freakedo ut and had a moment about it. oi.

i dunno we’ll see how it plays out. haha oh bother.

well today i felt like i needed to email our childrens ministry guy. to see if he needed help because we are really sort and we don’t have a service lead really for the 9 am service so i asked if he needed help with email reminders and doing the schedule. so i am now doing the schedule. and earlier i was like ahhhhh cause i had so many things racing through my head at once i couldn’t even read a book.

it was crazy so then i went of to community group……

i dunno like community group is great and all. and i get the point of it. but i don’t like to talk. and today i had to talk and it really kind of frustrated me. mostly cause i don’t like talking and it was like i was forced. and i sorta ended up crying. cause thats what happens. i don’t like opening up to people i’m not completely close to and i’m not close with them thats true but i’m not totally close with many people. i have my core and that is what i need for now. i dunno it kinda frustrated me a little bit and i didn’t know how to react to it.

hopefully tomorrow i can get stuff done on the schedule and such. i think now i will read my library book and go to bed. i’m trying to get that book done so i can start crazy love and start my book review book. oi vey. and i need to look for a job too. and do more etsy stuff mostly advertisement. ack k time for sleep until next time (which seems to be happening more often than not good for me) bye blogger friends!


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  1. Maybe you should talk to the leader of your CG. It shouldn't be a place that you are uncomfortable in to the point that you cry. It should be a place that supports you. You shouldn't be made or pressured into doing anything that you don't want to do.

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