For some reason I was just thinking about friends and church. You know how everyone has their group? I was thinking, wow I don’t have that group. Its so weird.
But at the same time its not that weird at all. Looking back throughout my life I haven’t ever been in a group really. I maybe had a few friends at a time that I hung out with. When I was little I had like one at a time. Kinda depressing really but I probably wouldn’t change it.
And now its like somehow we hung out with all these people and then it stopped so abruptly. I don’t really know what happened but I’m not really depressed about it. I was talking to someone the other day, I didn’t’ go to this thing I was invited to. And then that person said “we missed you” and I thought… well you probably didn’t even notice I was there. Honestly when I go places I’m pretty much the quietest person there. I’m socially awkward. Its just a fact, I’m not sad about it its just how it is.
And I’m not that lonely. (well I am when the boy isn’t around). I have the best friend I could ever ask for in my life. The man I will marry. So things aren’t that bad.
Then I have my hobbies, reading, photography, crocheting. I’ve always been into reading. I loved to do it from the very start when I learned. I was reading chapter books in 2nd grade which was supposedly advanced for that age. I am super grateful for books. And I am beyond happy I get to review them and get them for free! Especially since I don’t have a lot of money to buy books.
I don’t feel bad about who I am, I like to have my nose in a book, I’m not the most social person in the world. It was just odd to think about it for a minute. I am just a lover of books I guess, its always been in me. And I wouldn’t have that any other way.