its really depressing when you can look around and can’t even count the amount of friends you have on one hand. which means there are zero. its depressing when you can’t even talk to your best friend at the moment. or even feel like he is your best friend.
when you’re all alone and there is no one you can count on, when you have no one to do anything with, well at least i still have my books. but that doesn’t take away the pain. especially when you feel like the one you care most about can’t bother to actually pay attention to you.
i’m really very blah and annoyed and angry and weepy today. i hate that i don’t feel important enough to spend time with. i hate that the boy never gets his homework done and i’m the one stressing about it. i’m the one that doesn’t get any time cause hes always on his stupid phone. i’m just really annoyed with everything and anything today.